Am I religious?
...I have absolutly no idea how to answer this anymore.
Do you beleave in God?
...yes i beleave in god I just don't know which one.
What is your biggest fear?
...Religion?

                Let me explain:
      I have, as of late sumer, been inroled in a confermation class at my church.  I am going to fail.  I didn't even know that was posible!  However i am not going to fail because i am lazy and don't pay atention, infact i'm the only one that does pay atention.  Therefor the reasion i am going to fail my church run crash corse on all things god is beccause i pay to much atention.  To everything.  I am not going to blindly listen to what ever teacher tells me about some superhero in the sky.  I am going to conduct my own resurch.  I wish i didn't have to.  I with Ms. saintly teacher laddy could just answer my questions so that i could get on with my life but she refuses to give me strait answers. For example:

TEACHER:  God wants us to be like him that is why God sent Johna to help sinners in shamed towns.
ME: If god wants us to be like him then why did he distroy the tower of babilon and punish its builders?
TEACHER: Babilon is not my area of experties i will have to look it up'
ME (in my head): ARE YOU FREAKING KIDDING ME!? U ~MAJORED IN THIS~ AND YOU STILL DONT KNOW!?

NEXT WEEK

TEACHER: I found the verse about babilon its in genisus would you mind reading it?
ME: Together these people can acconplish anything... LET'S CONFUSE THEM!
       Are you KIDDING ME!? THIS is god's reasioning for destroying the lives of thousands of people!?
TEACHER: We mustent question God, bmavel!
ME:  O.o  then can i question you?
TEACHER: you may
ME: Doese this not prove my point that god does not want us to be like him and that he views us in a much lower standing?
TEACHER:The Bible says that God wants us to be like him.  Don't question God or the Bible.
ME: I am questioning neather i'm just trying to inturprit this scary ass ancient document.


Religion scares me not because god can judge me or becausei am noting compared to it. Religion scares me because it has the worlds biggest rabid fanbase with the ability to kill in some countries.  Its not the god i fear but the profit weather he be telling the truth or not he has the ability to destroy me in this life and right now that seems pritty freaky.  I could rant for hours (and i have) but i want to keep this short.
Thank you for your time!